I know that nothing is in my control but it’s so hard to acknowledge that or at least come to terms with.
My brain will play the blame game with itself that no matter what choice I make, or what the results are; its my fault and I’m the loser.
I misinterpret everything it seems, even my own existence.
I try to keep peace but I feel nothing but chaos around me.
The good outweighs the bad, but the bad still holds weight.
I know the universe is working in my favor and means well for me.
I know I deserve happiness, love, freedom, prosperity, and success but.. what does that even mean?
I don’t know what those things are because I have not processed them in my spirit and internal healing journey.
The scariest thing is to push people away and be so alone with the biggest enemy that is yourself.